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[07 Mar 2007|07:22am] |
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For anyone who HASN'T added my new journal it is Nick_xxx :)
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[09 Aug 2005|05:53pm] |
New journal xnixckx please add
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[21 Nov 2004|03:33pm] |
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Add Faggle to your friends list if you havent already. :)
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[07 Oct 2004|02:18am] |
new livejournal faggle
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[21 Aug 2004|12:11am] |
I've changed alot....
I use to hate weed and say I would never do it... I guess alot of people say that at one point in time though...
I have alot of new friends and few of my old ones... I guess people tend to grow away from eachother though and its a normal thing...
I know any change that has happened in me is a change that I dont want to take back. I dont regret any of it.
If there was no change in life... life would be boring.
I use to be upset 24/7... When is the last time I had a really depressing journal entry? Yeah its been awhile...
The only change I miss is the one where I stopped writing poetry... I no longer have that talent. Its gone...
Maybe I could only write it when I was depressed...
I wasnt all that good but I still enjoyed doing it...
Sometimes I miss Amanda... We use to have fun.
I miss Jamie and Dash. I havent talked to them in ages.
I miss 7th and 8th grade... When I had friends.
I miss speech and debate... thats the best class I ever had... Not because of what we did but because of the people in it. We were all such good friends.
I miss stacy and Rhiannon. I dont think I could ever be as good of friends with them again though...
But just because I miss that stuff dosent mean that I want it back. I dont. Im happy with what I haveright now... The friendships... The relationship... The family life... The "party" life.
I know some day it will all catch up to me and I wont be able to "party" as much... But while I still can... Why not do it?
I wish me and emily would hang out more.. Its not our fault we cant though.. Her mom dosent let her do much.
Today I was reading through old entrys and found some stuff... Stuff that shows me as, really gay, bitchy, dumb, random, changed.
"Today I found out that over the weekend Rachel cheated on me with one of her friends" Last girlfriend I had before I came out.
"Im sick of girls at my school with their fake little louis vuitten purses claiming they are real" Me being gay.
"Yeah so today this ghetto bitch was like god damn walk faster So I was like uhm bitch i cant walk faster then the people in front of me." Me being bitchy back.
"oh and Marissa should just got kill herself... Ryan hates her. and her ex is hooking up with her mom I mean what could be any worse than that? I mean ewww god." Me to involved in the OC
"Jennys guy at lunch today was being dumb and Jenny was like "your not even funny" and I was like "I agree maybe If I was in 7th grade you would be" My total hatrid for someone.
" Im glad Im never having any kids. If I did I would sell them on the black market. thought If I did they would be names hmm Hayden and Blair :). Though thats not possible because im never having kids. Emily said I can adopt cute ones from China I dont think I would have enough rice though." Me and showing what a boring keyboard class does to you
"This one time when I was walking down the street this one dog walked up to me and was like hey. and I was like woah your a talking dog. Then I woke up." Me being random.
"Ok well after school I did my daily routine of shower and changing clothes after being with all those gross people all day" Me being gay.
"it was an ok movie I just wanted to shoot whoever picked out what clothing she wore" Being gay again.
"Jessica T is a whore she has amandas chucks and my shirt she needs to burn in hell nasty girl." Me being bitchy/gay
"Me Jackie emily jenny and Kellie were feeling rebilous so we sat at a different table for 5 minutes this time." Me being dumb.
"fourth block some girls thong was showing and amanda preshious darrious andrew and corey were to afraid to say something so I yellld TIFFANY she goes huh? i go pull up your pants." Me being an asshole
"I grabbed so many people in bad places SO many times on accident but nobody cared because it was the cool thing to do lol." Me having fun.
"God weed sucks. we hang out. What does everyone want to do? Smoke Weed. God I hate it its so unfair. Im not like that at all. I dont do that shit so i sit there while they fucking do it. God I hate them" Showing the change.
"I mean hes a really sweet guy and stuff and hes always nice to me but he lives 45 minutes away and thats just a little crazy." Another sign of change.
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[31 Jul 2004|01:06am] |
For those of you who didnt know I have a new journal
myownslave
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[28 Jul 2004|12:21am] |
Well I havent really been up to much latly. Just been hanging out with Jessica. We went to the felix culpa show... Mark talked to us alot of the time hes nice. Yeah.
Ive hung out with Rob a little bit also... He played the guitar and sung for me the other day and wow that kid has talent. He says he sucks at it but I was amazed at what he was able to do.
Today is Jessicas birthday yay! I got her some pretty weird stuff lol. Including the taking back sunday cd.
Yeah thats all.
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[23 Jun 2004|01:33am] |
Get me out of here.
Out of this place.
Away from these people.
Away from you.
Away from me.
Away from them
Away from that.
Away from it.
Away from her
Away from him.
I dont want to stay.
Not here.
Not there.
Not with them.
Not with any of you.
You all make me sick.
I hate every last one of you.
Dont think that dosent include you because your the one it includes the most.
Get that book away from me.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING SEE IT.
GET YOUR FACE OUT OF MY WIDOW.
STOP HAUNTING ME IN MY DREAMS
I WANNA LIVE IN PEACE
BY MYSELF.
WITHOUT YOU
OR THEM
OR THEM ORTHEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM THEM
You make me sick.
I make you sick.
I tried my best.
ALL I DID WAS FAIL
I AM NOONE
NOONE AT ALL
LAUGH AT ME
IM A FREAK
IM A FUCKING IDIOT
A GOD DAMN FAILURE
YEAH THATS RIGHT JUST KEEP STARING IT MAY GET YOU SOMEWHERE,
Get me away from this judging
The labeling
The people
YOU
ME HER HIM THEM YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
Is it ok to scream yet?
So loud it shatters glass.
To let my tears fall down?
fill up a town.
LET ME CRY LET ME SCREAM
GET ME AWAY PLEASE LET ME GET AWAY I HATE THIS I REALLY DO I DONT WANT TO LIVE HERE I DONT WANT TO LIVE ANYWHERE PLEASE HELP ME OUT IM REACHING OUT AND YOU WONT HELP ME BECASUE YOU HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO WITH YOUR TIME NO TIME FOR ME NOBODY EVER HAS TIME FOR ME TO BUSY WITH OTHER PEOPLE YOU MAKE UP EXCUSES WHY? I SEE RIGHT THROUGH EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. TELL ME THE TRUTH I WONT BE AS CRUSHED. I REALLY WONT I PROMISE YOU I WONT. IF YOU DONT LIKE ME PLEASE DONT PRETEND THAT MAKES IT WORSE WHEN I FIND OUT YOU DONT. DONT LIE PLEASE DONT LIE LIE LIE LIE DONT LIE PLEASE DONT LIE PLEASE DONT LIE PLEASE DONT LIE DONT LIE PLEASE
Im just that kid you use to make fun of.
Yeah thats how half of you know me.
GET ME AWAY PLEASE DONT LIE WHATEVER YOU DO DONT LIE IT HURTS SO BAD.
I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO ANY OF YOU AGAIN. NOT A SINGLE ONE OF YOU. PLEASE DONT MAKE ME. DONT CALL ME. DONT STOP BY. DONT ASK ME TO DO ANYTHING. I KNOW YOU ARE FAKING IT. YOU FEEL BAD FOR ME AND FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO I DONT WANT YOUR PITY SO DONT GIVE IT TO ME I HATE IT I DONT WANT IT DONT GIVE IT TO ME ILL THROW IT AWAY... ILL RUN AWAY I WONT COME BACK ILL HIDE IN TREES. PLEASE DONT LIE TO ME I HATE IT SO MUCH IT BREAKS ME DOWN. I CANT MOVE WHEN YOU DO. I FALL TO THE GROUND BROKEN WAITING TO BE PICKED UP BY SOMEONE WHO IS TRUE IT DOSENT HAPPEN IT DOSENT WORK THAT WAY IT NEVER DOES.
Break me. Hate me. Kill me. Trample me. Stomp on me. Tackle me. Slap me. Kick me. Punch me. elbow me. shove me. hurt me.
LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE LOVE ME
YES THATS HOW IT IS AFTER ALL IVE BEEN THROUGH AFTER ALL IVE DONE FOR ANY OF YOU THATS HOW IT ENDS UP WHY THE FUCK IS THAT. DIDNT I DO ENOUGH FOR YOU? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH. IM SORRY THAT IM NOT PERFECT. IM SORRY IM NOT CUTE. IM SORRY I SUCK AT LIFE IM SORRY IM AN ASSHOLE IM SORRY I CANT TELL JOKES IM SORRY I HURT YOU IM SORRY YOU HURT ME IM SORRY FOR HAVING EMOTIONS IM SORRY FOR BEING BORN IM SORRY MY NAME IS NICK IM SORRY I LIVE IN ILLINOIS IM SORRY I LIVE IN THE US. IM SORRY IM A MALE. IM SORRY IM 17. IM SORRY I HAVE A CAR. IM SORRY I HAVE A COMPUTER IM SORRY YOU KNOW ME IM SORRY I KNOW YOU. IM SORRY YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ME IM SORRY I CANT PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS IM SORRY I DONT PLAY SPORTS IM SORRY IM GAY IM SORRY YOU BROKE MY HEART IM SORRY I BROKE YOURS IM SORRY I DONT LIKE YOU IM SORRY YOU DONT LIKE ME IM SORRY FOR BEING HERE. IM SORRY IM STILL UP IM SORRY I DONT HAVE A JOB IM SORRY ITS SUMMER VACATION IM SORRY I CANT GO AWAY IM SORRY SORRY IM SORRY SO SORRY I REALLY AM WHY WONT YOU BELIVE ME PLEASE LISTEN TO ME I REALLY AM I WOULD NEVER MEAN TO DO ANYTHING PLEASE LISTEN IM SORRY IM SORRY
IM SORRY
PLEASE
IM SORRY
im sorry
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[23 Jun 2004|12:57am] |
fuck you.
I hate you.
Dont fucking play with my head.
Do you want me or not?
YOUR FUCKING LAME FOR CHOOSING YOUR BOYFRIEND OVER ME WHEN YOUVE KNOWN ME LONGER IN THE FIRST PLACE
I hope you learned your lesson
And you I hope you come around
YOU KNOW I FUCKING WANT YOU.
And as for you you know I care.
I want this all to end.
But really I do.
I cant wait to be gone.
ETERANL LIFE OF FAVORABLE GOD?
FUCK THAT SHIT.
Rot under the earth is where I go.
you never include me in plans
YOU THINK YOU CARE BUT YOU DONT
why do you do this to me?
Do you like to see me suffer?
I LIKE TO FUCKING SUFFER IS THAT WHAT I SAY DO I TELL YOU TO FUCKING HURT ME HURT ME BITCH FUCKING HURT ME GOD DAMN YOU. HURT IS WHAT I FUCKING LIVE FOR I LOVE TO HURT HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME
BREAK MY HEART BITCH FUCKING BREAK STOMP ON GO AHEAD DO IT I DONT FUCKING CARE.
I try to make things right it dosent work i still scream the same words HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME HURT ME
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[18 Jun 2004|12:49pm] |
Top Commenters on dashboard_nick's LiveJournal
Total Commenters: 297 (197 not shown) Total Comments: 3986 Report generated 6/18/2004 12:49:39 PM by scrapdog's LJ Comment Stats Wizard 1.1
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[14 Jun 2004|08:00pm] |
*cough* I find something in there really funny but im not saying anything
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[06 Jun 2004|02:20am] |
table width=250 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0><tr><td bgcolor="black" align="center">brokenheartboi's LJ stalker is some_nights!</td></tr><tr><td align="center" bgcolor="white">some_nights is stalking you because another friend of yours told them you liked them. They are also in jail for murder!</td></tr></table>LJ Stalker FinderFrom Go-Quiz.com| dashboard_nick's LJ stalker is my_hurricane22! | | my_hurricane22 is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also eating your food when you aren't looking! |
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[06 Jun 2004|01:27am] |
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can someone who can make icons please im me xdamagedsoulx
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[26 May 2004|10:20pm] |
1. studded belt - 2 points: 2 2. dyed black hair -2 points: 0 3. thick rimed glasses - 2 points: 0 4. gaudy belt buckle - 2 points each: 2 5. clothing bought from a thrift store - 2 points each: 20 6. having hair with bangs longer than the rest - 2 points: 0 7. army style hats - 2 points: 0 8. messenger bag - 3 points: 0 9. livejournal/myspace/friendster account - 2 points each: 4 10. saucony/new balance/ converse shoes - 2 points per pair: 16( I got my sauconys before they were scene bitch) 11. mountian climbing key thingy - 2 points: 0 12. X'd up mosh gloves - 10 points: 0 13. scarf - 2 points: 2 14. refering to bands as acronym - 2 points: 0 15. vegan diet - 5 points: 0 16. vegitarian diet - for shame, no points: 0 17. food not bombs participation - 5 points: 0 18. straight edge - 5 points: 0 19. aspiring photographer - 3 points: 3 20. using adj from the late 80's/ early 90's (i.e. rad, gnarly, rockin', etc.) 1 point for each word in vernacular: 1 21. pins/buttons 1/2 point each: 6 22. plugs/body piercings - 2 points each: 2 23. vinyl collection - 10 points: 0 24. moldy peaches fan - 10 points: 0 25. liking metal seriously - deduct 5 points: 0 26. liking metalcore - 5 points: 0 27. reading books over 300 pages long - 3 points: 3 28. riding a bike - 5 points: 0 29. participating in "le hardcore dancing" - 5 points: 0 30. tea aficianado - 5 points: 0 31. writing poetry - 5 points: 5 32. attended 50 shows or more in a year - 2 points: 2 33. attending hell fest - 5 points: 0 34. being in a band - 5 points: 0 35. working at a record store/health food store - 5 points: 0 36. clapping durring midpaced part of a song - 5 points: 5 69
0-24 - poser! get out or be forced out. 25-44 - beginner. attend more shows, buy more records, you'll be fine. 45-74 - scenester. you've been around awhile and you know what's up, good job. 75 - or more - GOD! i bow to thee with your knowledge of everything hardcore.
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